Lost For Words #3 – Rules of Social Anxiety

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1. Walk with eyes fixed on the ground
They are watching, laughing, judging
Walk normal
Don’t focus on it too much or you will stumble and be made a fool of

2. Look like you are writing and busy in class avoid being called on
you know the answer but what if you stutter or mumble?
What if they tell you “speak up I can’t hear you”?

3. Don’t make a noise hold in that cough that sneeze that breathe
people will hear you
do not draw attention to yourself like that

4. Spend time every night before you go to bed to think
Think about all the embarrassing things you have ever done
Everyone remembers, that’s all they remember

5. Never enter a room full of people
They all look
Why are you here?
Why are you alive?

6. Your friends all secretly hate you
you know why they didn’t reply to your text you know how they all dread seeing you
you are only put up with because of pity

7. Always be scared
Scared to sit next to a stranger
Scared to see someone you know
Scared eat in front of people
Scared to talk on the phone
Scared to go to social events
Scared order at a restaurant
Scared to talk
Scared to have a panic attack
Scared to be noticed
Always scared

but don’t worry, you don’t like people anyway, at least that’s what you say
you’re “antisocial”
You don’t even care what they think
people are annoying, that’s what you tell them.
You play it off as a joke but really you’re always scared.

-Anonymous

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3 thoughts on “Lost For Words #3 – Rules of Social Anxiety

  1. I tend to regard that way of thinking as someone who thinks so highly of themselves that they continually feel everyone is observing them. The truth is, everyone is so self-involved that they could care less about what anyone else is doing.

    • Social anxiety has nothing to do with thinking highly of oneself…Mostly, the contrary is the case. I can just talk for myself right now, but personally I tend to think that I’m not good enough in most aspects of my life…no matter what I do. People with social anxiety and depression often break under their own high expectations on themselves.

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